Debbie’s World!

It was meant to be, I felt. How I know him, how I started to like him, the chemistry we have.

Let’s start from the beginning. I had just created an online matchmaking account due to some circumstances. After a few days, I received my first message from one of the members. He is Fabian. I was excited and replied. He then gave me his email add and we started to chat online.

Both of ur had never been in a relationship before. For me, I felt most of the feelings I had would be the curiosity of the possibility of a relationship. Hmmm…

From the 24 Jan 2005(Monday), We started to chat online every night, without fail. From the start, I was very interested in my new friend, I felt we had many things in common. We shared common beliefs and values. I felt we had chemistry, so much so that we even type(while chatting online…) the same thing at the same time. I was eager to know him more, understand what were his likes and dislikes, I felt I wanted to please him. I wanted to rush home everyday to chat with him. Before long, I felt something…

One week passed very quickly and by Sunday, he suggested that we chat on the phone for the first time. I had always hated to talk on the phone, I dun like the feeling of talking through a device. I am someone who prefer to talk face to face and express myself. At that time, I expressed my liking for him…

Talking for the first time was not easy for me. Hearing his voice for the first time made me extremely nervous. Suddenly, my mind stopped working! I didn’t know what to say, I wasn’t even thinking.

It was very much easier to ‘converse’ through typing on the keyboard then to say something out from the mouth. Why? Somethings you just can’t bring yourself to say out but you dun even need to think twice to type it out!

We decided to meet up one week later, on the eve of his 25th Birthday. That week was very hard to get by. We still chat every night, and I feel my liking for him grew fonder. I really felt that I LOVED him before I meet him. Hmmm…

That is why I am really sure that I like him for who he really is. No looks and materialistic factors involved at all.

I started to question myself if i really liked him or was it just an infatuation on impulse? Do I really like him or am I desperate? There was no way of return, I just wanted to follow my heart and go ahead. Throughout that week before we met up? I kept questioning him and myself. Being the kind, caring and understanding guy that he is, he kept assuring me and made me felt better.

As one week slowly crawled by, it was time to meet. This was the first time we see each other face to face. Nervous! Prior to meeting, we made a promise to be completely natural in front of each other. However, I couldn’t stop the desire to leave a good impression. I was also worried that we could not be able to talk face to face.

All those worries proved to be unnecessary. There was no awkwardness between us at all! And yes, I was natural! We first proceeded to Cineleisure to watch our first Movie-Shall We Dance. We got the lover’s seat of course…

The movie seemed to be short, I wasn’t really concentrating on the movie anyway… We then decided to go to the Esplanade to wait for the arrival of his Birthday! We are counting down together…

Our First photo. Poor darling, he had swollen eye that day.

We talked about many things, and time spent together with him just passed so fast. Soon midnight came and I sang a Birthday song for him. I HUGGED him, our first hug. I wanted to hug him very much even when I was chatting with him. It feel that something was finally complete within me. I finally hugged him. Ahhh…

Being my first entry, let me talk about myself.

I am the second child in the family and I have a very adorable elder brother that looked like Crayon Shin Chan! Yeah~~ (Who needs to go to LA to study!)

I came from Lianhua Primary School which is somewhere in the Bukit Gombak area and moved on to Woodlands Ring Secondary School, where I met some of the MOST IMPORTANT people that have changed my LIFE!

Secondary School life was the BEST for me. We were the pioneers and We had some of the Teachers that really cared for you. Especially Huang Lao Shi! I will never forget her. She is like our mother who constantly developed our talent, moulding me into the person I am today. She developed me into, what I feel to be, an abled speaker, a contributor, and someone with initiative in doing things. (What do you think?)

I also had classmates that were so enthu! They are really people that I would be proud to call friends! We always take part in competition. And we always do last minute work but all are dedicated and of course, we won many of the competitions. Still remember the times we stayed back after school to start on a mural which was due the next day! And had to go early the next morning to complete it! All were so united and I really missed those times.

Life in Secondary School seemed so innocent and carefree…

And there are my "Sisters"! We shared many good times( and some bad times) together. They never gave up or belittled me, always standing beside me, supporting me. To me, the relationship between my sisters and me is very important. I do not need them to tell me everything if they do not want to, I just want them to be happy. If ever any of them have any unhappiness or need any assistance, I hope to be there for them. I will help to the best of my ability. Eventhough I cannot help, let me be there to at least offer a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on.

"Value the friend who for YOU finds time on his Calendar. CHERISH the friend who for YOU do not consult his Calendar!"

Then comes to my life in Singapore Polytechnic, where I pursued a Diploma in Chemical Process Technology (Food Technology). Initially, I could not really adapt to Poly life, which was very much different from the environment I had in Secondary School. I was so different, the people seemed to be more distant, and we had to protect ourself. After a while, I got used to Poly Life (finally) and began the journey of slacking!

There I made many friends that really added zest to my LIFE. We played and tried very hard to study, rushed to hand in datasheets and reports! And I am always late in my submissions! Thank you all lecturers and clasmates who had understood and helped me! Truely greatful.

Life in the Food Tech was really interesting. I loved all the practicals, especially the sensory and food flavours practicals were we made delicious ice cream and muffins! Not to forget the cookies and kaya. I LOVE Food Tech!

Lecturers of the Food Option were all so kind and understading, I will really miss them soooooooo much! And not to forget my fellow classmates that are all so fun. Haiz…

Well, the exams are coming real soon and i do hope that I can do better this semester to make up for lost grades of previous semesters, where I slacked and got very bad results!

Wish me LUCK!