Debbie’s World!

I saw this on Sharon’s Blog and I love it…

"When I dream…

If every dream is of you…

… I would want to sleep forever"

Friendship is like a handful of sand that u grasp in your hand. Hold on to it carefully for if it slips past your hand, that handful of sand will never feel the same again. True? I find it absolutely true.

I was singing K-Lunch today with Fabian, and was singing the Stef and Tanya duet, Yuan Dian. While singing, I suddenly broke down crying. I thought of how fragile a friendship between two best pals could be. All because of a guy. Whom was not worth the sacrifice of what was such a long and deep friendship.

Will you fall in love with someone your best friend fancy? Will the thought even surface in your mind in the first place? If it did, will you take any action? Many people have different views on this.

"别对我抱歉别总觉得对我亏欠
现在他在你的身边就对他好一点"

Isn’t true friendship about understanding? Isn’t true love about letting go and allowing him to find greater happiness. Basically, it is no use crying over spilled milk. Don’t apologise to me, don’t feel that you owe me anything. Now that you are beside him, just treat him better.

"我应该就走开就算感情还在
我应该就放开对他不再依赖
忘了曾有过的片段
这是属于你们的未来"

I should walk away, even if there are still feelings within me. I should let go, and not depend on him anymore. Forget the past or what could have have happened. This belongs to both of your future. Sounds noble doesn’t it? But few people is capable of doing this.

I believe that when it comes to a matter of relationship, nothing is ever right or wrong. It is all a matter of the heart. In such cases, are the parties willing to empathise, and step into each other’s shoes, and not put the blame on each other?

Time is capable of healing all wounds. It is just a matter of how deep the pain is and how long time needs. Even though the wound will heal one day, but a painful scar will be left there forever.

You have fell down and climbed up again. Isn’t it good that you have left that guy and found a better catch? I am sincerely happy that you have found someone that you love truely now, and I hope that he will be the ONE for you.

You have gave up your friendship for that guy, only to let go in the end. I know that you are hurt. Don’t keep everything inside and look strong. I know that deep down inside, you are in pain.

Our friendship is something that I cherish deeply.

Today was the last exam paper I will have to take! And I consider myself to be a poly graduate! Keeping my fingers crossed at the same time…

I am actually slightly worried as I didn’t really study much for the exams. Maybe it was the last exams but I didn’t feel the urge to strive, I did thought of it, as I wanted to make up for the lost throughout the other exams, but my lazy bones got the better of me.

I wonder when I will get my results. I hope that the lecturers will make everybody pass. The first 2 papers were really very hard. The third one was quite predictable, while the one today was, ok. But I didn’t study much so I just used my own commonsense to go about doing it. Well, my commonsense did pull me through 2 1/2 years of poly education.

I can only hope for the best now. In the mean time, I shall enjoy the one week break before the start of my first full time permenant job!

I am real excited over the bicycle that i bought today. I had been thinking and longing for a bicycle for a very long time, ever since my first attachment, because I had always wanted to cycle to work. Now, I have the chance!

I bought mine from 888 Plaza. It is a very cheap bike, which originally looked sporty, but after my makeover, it now looks totally ‘Auntie’ with a basket and a second seat. Well, I am looking for functionality here.

It was tiring to cycle from 888 Plaza to my house. To top it up, I am not a average cyclist, I often get attracted to drains and trees, I wonder why. But anyway, I shall practise hard before the commencement of my work.

I think I can really shed some pounds from this! Talking about work, I hope that I can get a decent pay. Haiz~

Today was the food processing engineering paper. And prior to that the lecturers were so kind to offer us ‘guidance’ and helping us score for this paper. Most importantly, they didn’t trick us. One more paper left, Food Packaging. I wonder what kind of quiestion will come out. Wish me LUCK~~

Today I went to eat the very, extremely smelly fermented toufu (chou dou fu) with Darling. Woh~ How to describe??

Smell was like that of a very smelly drain, that had been choked for months. Once get near to the shop, the smell lingers in the air and you knoe that you are somewhere near. The skin was very crispy and one bite into the beancurd, u can feel the juicy-ness oozing into ur mouth. The taste was acceptable for me. But I think i need some time to get used to. =P

What do we want actually? I don’t really know myself. Firstly, the food microbiology paper was too tough, but today, the food flavour was really easy, especially in comparison to previous year’s papers. It was so easy that most focused on what we felt was the harder parts and neglected the simple principles.

I heard from many people saying that they felt that Ms Leong was out to kill us again(after the micro paper), but I felt that she was helping us with the last question, which was something we memorised for the practical test. Maybe she did not tell us to focus on that part, she didn’t even tell us that partical part may come out, but that was really was quite a simple and straight forward question.

Anyway, I still love all my lecturers from the FOOD TECH!

Will work harder for next paper on Wednesday!

Btw, I will be starting my job at CerealTech from 25 April onwards!

I just had my first paper for the last semestral exam (hopefully), which was food microbiology, yesterday. It was a killer paper man.

Firstly, the lecture notes are sooo very thick. Secondly, only gave us sooo little tips. Thirdly, all those you study don’t come out. Lastly, the questions are sooo hard. There was even a trick question!

I can’t believe that our lecturers are out to kill us, even for our last exams! What if we fail and have to forward module? That is the greatest concern on my mind. Which was why I was so worried for that particular paper.

To be honest, this was the only semester that I felt that I had the most time to study, which I tried. But the food microbiology was too hard for me to swallow. And I was really worried when I was waiting outside the exam venue. When I read the question paper, all hope was lost. Nonetheless, I attempted every question, hoping for a miracle. There was a question I was very sure about, the RPLA question. But that was a trick question set by Ms Leong. And all my answer for that question should had been the opposite! Oh my God!

No use brooding over spilled milk, I shall try harder for the other papers then.

Went to school today and finally got to understand about how countercurrent leaching works. Really worried about the exams as I will so graduate and is worried that I might fail anyone module and have to repeat one more semester. Saw Mrs Ku today and she said that from the question she marked the class should be ok. But kind to think of it, I am not very confident for my last quiz, I just hope I can pass. No point pondering for now, have to concentrate on the oncoming exams and do well.

Mr Ng was really patient today, going thru the leaching questions today and he made sure that we really understand. There is a high chance that countercurrent will come out again and it is really hard to do. Haiz~~ I hate the exams…

In the evening, I went to watch House of Fury with Darling Fabian. It was really such an enjoyable movie, both the plot and the actor, Stephan Fung, kept me glued to the screen. It was really very funny and at the same time heart-warming. The movie kind of reminded me and my brother, when the charactors, Stephan and Gillian fight. But the action was there, the Kung Fu choreography was fantastic. I am not a fan of action packed movie, but the movie was really great. Maybe Stephan did attracted me to watch it, but the movie was worth every penny.

From May onward, the movie tickets will increase by $1. Haiz~~

Lesser movies for me liao~~

The exams are coming real soon and I don’t really have the mood to study, everything that goes in for one moment, leaves the next. What to do??? I think I am just too lazy…

I hate the exams and I am looking forward to the life after exams. I can’t wait for the days where I will be working and actually earning money and have some real figures inside my bank account.

Life has been very vexing for me. Imagine having an extremely irritating brother that comes up to you everyday to persuade you to convince my ma to send him back to LA. It is not that I do not want to help, but seeing my ma in her present condition, it just aches my heart to put more stress into her. The truth is that we do not have the money to send him back and I am very against the thing itself. I just feel that he is being selfish. But kind to think of it, he is the only brother I have and I really want him to have happiness, and he will only be happy if he is back there. What to do again???

It is just so hard to be happy isn’t it? To make everybody happy… I just wish for peace~~

My Sisters (all 7 of them, especially Danni) are very important to me. People might often wonder why the 8 of us, who have very different personality, can actually clique together.

Well, I never really figured that out actually. But who cares? Basically, all of us have some common traits. We are all kind, caring, patient and understanding (most of the time) to each other. They will always be among the people that I treasure most.

Let me start with my Mei Mei- Danni! She is the cute baby of the group! And she is also the one that I care the most for. Sometimes I feel that I dote on her more than I care for my La Bi Xiao Xing Brother…

Let me discribe how she looks first. She looks very much like JJ- Lin Jun Jie. REALLY! She had been chased by fans! Being extremely adorable and lovable, you will definately find it hard (almost impossible) to find her to be the least bit irritating. Everything she does is just too cute.

Being the "Best Listener" of the group, she is often the ONE everybody confide to. Most of the time, she have a lot of worries within her, both of other people but mainly of her own problems, about her future, family… Having all that problems and troubles bottled inside her, she seldom tell people of her troubles. But she will always be there to offer a listening ear and make you feel better. Basically, she is an angel. She never liked trouble anybody therefore she never tell of her problems.

I do hope that she will tell me her problems, I may not offer the best solution, but as long as it is within my means, I will help. And I know that when I have any problems she will always be there for me also.

Crystal is the modern chick of the group. Always in style and in shape. Basically extremely fun to be with and is full of general knowledge, from wine to gourmet foods, she has seen everything it seems. Studying in NUS architecture, she is always very busy to complete her assignments and project. It worries me that she is not getting enough sleep and it seems that she gets sick quite often nowadays.

Esther used to be the goodie girl of the group. Now she is still GOOD but she has started to do more daring things, which is good. She has a mind of her own and is not easily influenced by someone. Being very family orientated, she is very close to her family and they mean the world to her. Many things seem to be crashing down on her, and it pains me to see her so devastated. She was torturing herself physically to drown her sorrows. But she fell down and got up, and is now a self sufficient young adult, juggling both work and study. I am so proud of her. I do wish her all the best in her current relationship. That guy better treat her good, she is a real good catch. =)

Jane I feel is the fortunate girl of the group. She has everything- the looks, brains, happiness(with her S** Y**), etc. I felt that I had only seen the good side of jane before, people say that she can be extremely stubborn at times, but to me, she is just another lovable person that had walked into my life. Being a fun lover, she is often very attractive and makes friends easily. You will definately see some of her friends coincidentally on every outing with her.

The first thing someone will say to Jane will most probably be a comment on her height. Being as tall as a giraffe, she often attracts the gaze of passerby with her tall and slender physique and her model-like features.

Lydia was the bubbly girl of the group. She is often very expressive with the things she has to say. She is very vocal, talk well, sing well. She is a very determined person who will work very hard for her goals. Being very friendly and lovable, most people will like her just by looking at her. Now, she has found a steady boyfriend and soon to be hubby!

Pei Ren is the Mei Nu of the group. Born with barbie-like features, she often have man admirers hovering around her. She is someone that is willing to do anything for her friends, she is very kind by nature and is a well-known children lover. She is thinking of kids before she actually found herself a boyfriend! Being very clever and bright, she is a fast learner. Time spent with her is always enjoyable because she is just simple fun to be with. =D

Shulin is the advanture girl. The CI is always on trips to Ubin, which is like her home. Now she is very busy with her hubby(Bear) and baby(Xiao Hong-the phantom bike ;P). We had always commented that she is of a unique personality. She likes anything furry, talks to insects, eats grass… If there is a cockroach, she will not scream of shout, most probably she will play with it. She is basically a extremely helpful person, and is very blur and cute.

As many of us are either working, schooling, we may be drifting apart slowly. But I hope that we will all stick together always.

" A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have. "