Debbie’s World!

behind e smiles are e hidden pain…
behind e laughters are tears that are not shown…
behind that romantic fairytale, there’s an invisible page filled with tears…

Have you ever heard before that nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them? Then comes the saying that LOVE is BLIND.

Many people might not see the faults of their loved ones and always feel that they are ‘perfect’. They might feel that they look like Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt even though they are just plain Jacks. Some might be just some jerks. Of course, during courtship, things just seemed to be too good to be true. But when time passes and reality start to creep in, things change. They give excuses, make make you cry, cheat you and treat you bad, but you just can’t see it, because you love him? And you still think that is true love. We have to protect ourselves.

"What would you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?"

The hardest thing to do is to watch the person you love, love somebody else. It is never too late to know that someone is not right for you. Hurt you might be, but life has to go on. What is worst? Losing the guy you love, or losing the guy you love and your life, at the same time, make people that care about worried? You might feel cheated and lost, but you have to be strong.

"Don’t cry over someone, who won’t cry over you."

To me, there is no point in drowning in your sorrows. Find strength and immune yourself. The harder you fall, the more you learn. But remember to learn from the mistakes. 

"When it hurts to look back, and you’re scared to look ahead, you can always look beside you and find your best friends and family there."

True LOVE is about finding that ONE, that LOVES you BACK. True LOVE, at least to me, is never blind. You know that you have found him when you can see his shortcomings and accept them, not let them be invisible to you. You should still have a life outside of him, not just revolving around him. He will do the same for you too. Accept you for who you are, and encourage you to be someone better for your own good, not changing you into want he wants.

And if one day you find that he is not the ONE, move on. It is better to let go before you lose out even more. It is worse to carry on, even after you know he is not right for you. You have made the right choice.

Be more focused right now, there are other things that are more important. Like your future. Start planning and don’t procrastinate. Don’t regret only when it is too late. Remember learn from mistakes! You don’t have to make them all yourself.

In life you win some, you lose some. But you can control what or how much you win or lose. Why not let the glass to be always half full to you? Think about it.

Well Life is Short! Live Life~

听着自己的心跳
没有规则的跳跃
我安静的在思考
并不想被谁打扰
我们曾紧紧拥抱
却又轻易地放掉
这种感觉很微妙
该怎麽说才好
时间分割成对角
停止你对我的好
瓦解我们的依靠
在你离开之后的天空
我像风筝寻一个梦
雨后的天空
是否有放晴后的面容
我静静的望着天空
试着寻找失落的感动
只能用笑容
期待着雨过天晴的彩虹

We will ever be together again? I long to see the smiles again.

Will the sun come out and will there be a rainbow? Only time will tell…

After a whole month of slogging, I finally got my first official pay. It was really disappointingly low, even though I expected that amount. I find that it is really hard to get a job these days and I am really glad that I managed have a job, and bringing home some income.

Recently my mum just got retrenched, but she is still working part-time. It may be a blessing in disguise as my mum really need some time to rest and her health is giving way to her age. But with my limited pay, it is going to be hard. Jia You~~

Job is still very tiring for me. Eventhough I don’t really do much hands on nowadays, mainly paperwork and going out, which I enjoy a lot. Visiting other places allows you to open up to the industry and really get to see some things. I feel that I am slowly getting the hang of things, but still not really there yet. I will continue to work hard and try to be more organised. =P

Job is really fun at the same time, the people at my company, the attachments students, were simply great to be with. But I miss Ni and Yen Wee alot leh… And soon Shan might be leaving as well.

Darling Fabian found a job, he went back to his attachment company as well. And he makes me so jealous of his pay, well, he is a uni grad… Darling Jia You!

Some he will be leaving for Korea for the bridge tournament, and I will miss him. Imagine almost 2 weeks! And communications can be so very expensive, except for the net. But I am so lazy nowadays to come online.

Nowadays, I feel that I am drifting away. Away from my friends that I may have never been real close to? I don’t know. Most of the time I just feel that I don’t know what is going on. But I feel that when someone wants to tell, they will. If not, why force them.

I just want to do what my hearts desire now. Maybe I am starting to be selfish? Sometimes you can get so tired to pretend to be close to someone you feel uncomfortable with.

Friends are meant to be kept, not forgotten. I hope to maintain my friendship with all my friends. But when you are the one that is always making all the efforts, you get sick of trying. Everybody wants to feel treasured.

Life is GREAT! =)